Holidays

I can remember that Christmas was my favorite holiday. The J.W's didn't celebrate any holidays, but that didn't stop me from wishing that we would. When we would go to meetings I can remember seeing houses decorated, and I always told myself that if I had my own home I would decorate all of it inside and out. Well you would think that if we didn't get new clothes and toys on that day, that we would get them through out the year, not so. My whole childhood I was never bought a new toy, and the only new clothes we got was 3 shirts and pants right before school, after that it was second hand.

I never understood the reasons behind why we didn't celebrate any holidays. I do remember that my dad would take us to my aunts house every Thanksgiving, but I think it was because he liked turkey. In our home we never had any kind of holiday dinner. Oh how I wanted to celebrate holidays go trick or treating like my friends from school, or get an Easter basket, or get a tree and be in the Christmas play, but those things would never happen to me as a child. I hated going back to school after a holiday, just seeing all my school friends with their new stuff always made me sad.

Memories

Every person has memories of there childhood. I do to,but most of all my memories would be enough to scare you, or so out there that you would ask yourself my god did this really happen to her. I assure you that all my memories that I will blog about are true. I will also try and write about my good memories, but trust me there isn't that many. I will change the names of my family, friends, and relatives, so that I can write without anyone knowing who exactly is writing. The memories I will blog about are not in any kind of order, I will write them as they come to me.
I was born into a very religious family,but that did not stop my father from getting falling down drunk almost every night, and to top it off he was a mean drunk. The only times he didn't drink were meeting nights(a night that we had to go to church).My mother a very good woman stood by his side not for love,but because in the J.W religion the man was the head of the house hold, and divorce was forbidden. Unless someone committed adultery and even then you had to talk to the elders of the church to see if it was okay divorce. Elders are ordinary men that make the decision for the congregation on everything and anything. Basically anything you feel is wrong, and you have confessed or someone has told on you. Once they have come to know your sin the three men(the elders) pray over the matter then let you know what your punishment will be, because god has spoken to them through prayer. Never the less I thought being a J.W. was hard, and I wished my family could have been any religion other than J.W's