Blood Transfusions

Blood transfusions are against the J.W. religion. My whole childhood I would pray that I wouldn't get some kind of horrible illness or get in some kind of horrible accident, because I knew that if I needed any blood my parents would show there faith by telling the doctors to do what they could without blood, and if I died from lack of blood then so be it. It was a known fact that if any J.W. would allow a B.T with themselves or with family members it meant that they doubted their faith that one day there loved ones would be resurrected into paradise and live forever, and they would parish for their lack of faith. One day The neighbor across the street called me over to pick up something she had made for our family to eat, and while I was there she had me taste some. It didn't look familiar, I knew it was some kind of meat, but I didn't know what kind. After I ate some she told me it was blood sausage, or some kind of meat made with blood. Not thinking anything of it I took the plate home to my parents, and told them what it was. My mom screamed, and took the plate away from me, and burnt the meat in the oven. When that was done they buried the burnt meat in the back yard, for some reason not known to me. They asked me if I had ate any of the meat, and I told them yes. Both my parents were very upset, they showed me in the bible that it was against gods law to eat blood, and anyone doing this would die.(Hence the whole blood transfusion law for J.W's) I knew right then that I had forfeited my right to live forever in paradise, and that god was going to punish me for breaking his law, even thou I was about seven or eight and didn't know any better. I can remember crying, and feeling very scared, so much so that I was looking to my parents to console me, and tell me that god would forgive me, but they never did come to me to make me feel better. I prayed for gods forgiveness until I was an adult for eating that blood meat. I finally forgave myself for what I had done, and I quit praying for forgiveness for the meat I had eaten.